I wake up screaming from dreaming

One day I'll watch as you're leaving

And life will lose all its meaning

For the last time

I'll stare directly at the sun but never in the mirror

I wake up screaming from dreaming

One day I'll watch as you're leaving

'Cause you got tired of my scheming

For the last time

Life is emotionally abusive

You wanting me tonight feels impossible

 I can't speak afraid to jinx it

I don't even dare to wish it

But your eyes are flying saucers from another planet

Now I'm all for you like Janet

Can this be a real thing? Can it?

 I touch my phone as if it's your face

Cause there were pages turned with the bridges burned

Everything you lose is a step you take

You're on your own, kid

Yeah, you can face this

You're on your own, kid

You always have been

I  guess sometimes we all get

Just what we wanted, just what we wanted

And he never thinks of me

Except when I'm on TV

I guess sometimes we all get

Some kind of haunted, some kind of haunted

And I never think of him

Except on midnights like this 

I remember

Good girl, sad boy

Big city, wrong choices

We had one thing going on

I swear that it was something

'Cause I don't remember who I was

before you painted all my nights

A color I've searched for since

Does

it

feel

like

everything's

just like

second-best

after that

Meteor strike?

They say looks can kill and I might try

I don't dress for women

I don't dress for men

Lately I've been dressing for revenge

Ladies always rise above

Ladies know what people want

Someone sweet and kind and fun

The lady simply had enough

Don't put me in the basement

When I want the penthouse of your heart

Sadness became my whole sky

I made you my world, have you heard?

I can reclaim the land

And I miss you

But I miss sparkling!

Break up, break free, break through, break down

You would break your back to make me break a smile

You're terrified to look down

'Cause if you dare, you'll see the glare

Of everyone you burned just to get there

It's coming back around

Ask me what I learned from all those years

Ask me what I earned from all those tears

Ask me why so many fade, but I'm still here

Cause karma is the thunder

Rattling your ground

Karma's on your scent like a bounty hunter

Karma's gonna track you down

Step by step from town to town

Sweet like justice, karma is a queen

They said the end is coming

Everyone's up to something

I find myself running home to your sweet nothings

Outside, they're push and shoving

You're in the kitchen humming

All that you ever wanted from me was sweet nothing

Industry disruptors and soul deconstructors

And smooth-talking hucksters out glad-handing each other

And the voices that implore, "You should be doing more"

To you, I can admit that I'm just too soft for all of it

If you fail to plan, you plan to fail

Strategy sets the scene for the tale

Spineless in my tomb of silence

Tore your banners down, took the battle underground

That was the night I nearly lost you

I really thought I lost you

Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye

You were bigger than the whole sky

You were more than just a short time

And I've got a lot to pine about

I've got a lot to live without

I'm never gonna meet

What could've been, would've been

What should've been you

Every single thing to come has turned into ashes

'Cause it's all over, it's not meant to be

Privacy sign on the door

And on my page and on the whole world

Romance is not dead if you keep it just yours

I wanna brainwash you

Into loving me forever

I wanna transport you

To somewhere the culture's clever

Confess my truth

In swooping, sloping, cursive letters

Let the only flashing lights be the tower at midnight

You know there's many different ways that you can kill the one you love

The slowest way is never loving them enough

God rest my soul, I miss who I used to be

The tomb won't close, stained glass windows in my mind

I regret you all the time

I can't let this go, I fight with you in my sleep

The wound won't close, I keep on waiting for a sign

I regret you all the time

If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?

Years of tearing down our banners, you and I

Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts

Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first

Dear reader

The greatest of luxuries is your secrets

Never take advice from someone who's falling apart

Never take advice from someone who's falling apart

Dear reader

You don't have to answer, just 'cause they asked you

Dear reader

When you aim at the devil make sure you don't miss

I find the artifacts, cried over a hat

Cursed the space that I needed

I trace the evidence, make it make some sense

Why the wound is still bleedin’?

You were the one that I loved

Don’t need another metaphor, it’s simple enough

A wrinkle in time like the crease by your eyes

This is why they shouldn’t kill off the main guy

Dreams of your hair and your stare and sense of belief

In the good in the world, you once believed in me

And I felt you and I held you for a while

Bet I could still melt your world

Argumentative, antithetical dream girl