Resisting a task is usually a sign that it's meaningful - which is why it's awakening your fears and stimulating procrastination.

You could adopt "Do whatever you're resisting the most" as a philosophy of life.

As Steven Pressfield says in his book The War Of Art , "The more important [something] is to our soul's evolution, the more resistance we will feel toward pursuing it."

In his book The Now Habit, Neil Fiore suggests keeping an "Unschedule " - a time log on which you make plans for leisure activities but on which you record hours of work only after you've finished them.

If you plan in advance to do x hours of work in a day, anything less becomes a failure; if you make no such plans, every minute worked counts as a success.