You have to struggle for 5,10,15,20 years. There's no way around it.
Accept that you're pathetic right now, don't feel like you listen to these great people & understand them so you're now 1 of them. You aren't 1 of them until you actually put yourself through hell and earn to be more than pathetic.
What's your why? Why are you here? Search the answer inside honestly
Be honest about your inadequacies, work hard to do the things you hate