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At first, I was happy in doing all the activities that I did. However, as time goes on I feel bored because of my reduced rest time, feel that the results I receive are not in accordance with the fatigue I get, and doubt my abilities. I always think, “Can I reach my dream to become a successful person and make my parents proud?”, and it’s as if my mind is answering, “Your chances of reaching that dream are very small, Ra. Many of them are more prepared than you”. I feel stressed, insecure, and easy to complain. Because of that my mood was easily broken at that time. I think that the life I live is bleak and feel that everything I have done so far is all in vain. Without realizing it, tears fell and touched my cheeks. Then it made me overthink again and become a weak person. I know that to achieve this dream is very difficult because I will be faced with those who have high intellectual intelligence, privilege, and their competitive environment so that they are trained in competing and have many opportunities to become successful people, whereas I am just a a dreamer who only has plans and tries to carry out those plans in preparation to compete with them. Judging from that, it’s true that the chances of me being able to pursue that dream are slim or even non-existent. Because in my opinion, I cannot exceed and even equate their standardization as students who want to be successful and those who have prepared their plans in a neat and structured manner. In addition, coupled with soft skills that will be a weapon in facing the world of competition in the future.