Feelings and memories that you can never receive back in time. What is the purpose of reaching to anyone new! How are you able to recover from the feels and the thoughts that are going through your mind. Just because something tragically out of the blue came about?! Leaving me with scrambled and lost in this world.

Loaner of a child

Have you ever felt like things were not right for you? When you do the same thing daily, leading to depression. You feeling like nobody is not right for you or what are you on this earth for. Sadly and surely wishing you were with the higher people an not only that the people that made you excited everyday to be around! Simple thinking with a little thoughts that have floated in my mind and others as well.

Thoughts of not awakening 

When you hear the thoughts of not being able too just eat anything. Your having an allergic reaction to who know’s. You driving and start feeling something developing on your face (temple) and flip the sun blocker down an when you notice that you developing fever bumps. Can’t pop them because you are thinking as if it’s pimples “smack on the forehead” I need my ointment

Breaking Out!

Things You Wished and Waited On:When you received that one phone call? “ your adrenaline, your heart skipped a beat, and led you to be very anxious”. Blinded myself by STOPPING everything around me, that was important! Especially, allowing myself to really “love/like” a person from decades ago!Noticing a change, in a lot of things, allowing the Love to take over, leaving me in negligence of my own willpower!Tending to flip; The energy towards me. When I sacrificed, my loyalty 4 years ago. He stated, “I’m playing games”, “what have you showed me”, and “patterns continuously”.

Read writing from Chkiaya Paul on Medium. Hello everyone, I am currently trying something different. That is certainly writing. Yes, I have a story to write, a lot of things that comes to mind.