To elaborate, I couldn't even touch my books at home, but when in the library, I couldn't touch my phone. WHY? Coz the library was full of people creating anxiety, and it was full of nerds and toppers, creating even more comparison factors which fueled my pain which in turn fueled my motivation.

PAIN

I cried a lot that night. Slept at around 4 and woke up at 5:30 coz of the load of motivation that mixture of pressure and pain gave me. I exercised, meditated, went to the library, and did everything an ideal student does. The exam pressure acted as a catalyst and made me face my reality. At that moment I realised how important the role of 'PRESSURE' is in our lives.

PRESSURE

Absence of pain, pressure or passion leads to procrastination.

I am just a depressed philosophical soul who just observes humanity and speaks less than a paragraph per day.

Who Am I

The classroom filled with students created social anxiety for me so I was unable to focus entirely on the lecture. I found a local library and realised that my efficiency is far more in the library than in the classroom. So, just for a change, I wanted to study from library. The moment I took that decision and didn't go the classroom just for a day, everything changed. The studious kid who had a book in his hands even while waiting in the bus line was now scrolling Instagram till he fell asleep. WHY? I asked. The answer I got was 'PAIN'. Pain gives you the sincerity and the motivation.

I am a tech geek and philosophical (simply means absent minded and lost in his own world). So, as a tech geek, I love programming. So, after several months of leaving my coaching, (yes, JEE doesn't require colleges and attendance), when I was still not able to study or complete even one chapter nicely (probably it's my sense of perfection which doesn't let me believe that I have done a chapter), I decided to take a break and embrace my hobbies, coding.

PASSION

I started working on a project called 'Stepwise' which is way too inspired by Deepstash as I loved the app too much (I discovered the app in that break time, just before I started coding). It's basically Deepstash but the flashcards are generated by AI and not humans so you can ask anything and it gives you step by step solutions and even explain you any chapter of your course book via flashcards. It was just a project, made it in 15 days and abandoned it, you can check it out at <a href="https://janakgohil.stepwise.com/">janakgohil.stepwise.com</a>

I used to work on that project 19 hours a day, sacrificing my sleep, even my meals, and everything. Didn't eveb bathe for the 7 days of development of Stepwise. I realised in the process that PASSION or even a simple little liking on any subject matter can push your boundaries way beyond limits and give you loads and loads of motivation. So, I concluded this in the below quote:

A passion for self development or pressure from your mentors or teachers can only help you lead this path. I have never heard any successful personality say that he is successful because he was disciplined, NO! A person who just broke up with a woman he loved the most, goes through stages of immense pain which pushed him in the direction of self development, mainly GYMS. A gymboy needs self control for eating heathly and disciple for going to GYM everyday. In conclusion, DISCIPLINE AND SELF CONTROL arise from Pain, Pressure & Passion only.

What About Self Control And Discipline?

Nearly everything, every form of productivity method you can imagine arise from these three things. The methods that don't meet this criteria don't last longer, not even a day in some cases.

That Can't Be Possible!

Absence of Pain, Pressure or Passion leads to Procrastination

I was pretty studious kid and was a genius for my age until class 8. I became depressed, suicidal, spoke way less than before and my mind filled with anxiety. I was on the verge of loosing it until COVID 19 came as a boon. I spent my 2 years of life which was maybe 90% of my life considering that the life after COVID 19 was just a repetitive - eat, insta, sleep pattern. I was on the journey of self development in that COVID 19 era and that stage ended last year in the month fo February. The self development journey was basically anything which improved my personality, looks and intelligence.

How Did I Create This Quote

Now, don't tell me that there are many other things which lead to procrastination or can help you achieve things in life, believe me there are not. I haved read almost every self help book, tried everything I can, watched YT Videos, read Reddit & Medium posts, watched many 'Slice of Life' category's animes, movies & shows, read tweets & quotes, Deepstash, Blinkst, every fucking thing and NOTHING WORKED.

The Quote

It was very comfortable for me in my room scrolling Instagram. A few days later, I got to know about my exam schedule. That night, I cried a lot, for 3 hours straight unable to take breath? Why? The first reason was that my parents had a huge fight but that was probably insignificant one. The second one was that everything from the last 4 years came to my mind, suddenly. The anxiety, depression, hopelessness, how I tried to patch things up but failed every fu**ing time (not even exaggerateting, I tried 1000 times to do it), comparison with peers, everything came to my mind.

Not every self help book is covered. Atomics habits, Can't Hurt Me, The 5AM Club are some examples of the books you don't need to read after understanding this quote. Books like Ikigai, The Subtle Art of Not Giving a Fuck, Think Like A Monk are some examples which isn't covered by this quote and they teach about lifestyles and not a path to self development.

Is It Really A Dense Summary Of All The Self Help Books?

I always chased perfection and ideal scenarios. Then came, after the COVID ERA, in 2021, my JEE journey (2nd toughest exam of the world given by students in class 12), I was in class 11 preparing for it. I was just on the verge of coming out of depression when the study pressure and comparison with peers made me relapse. I kept on trying, everyday, every damn minute, even while waiting for my bus there used to be a book in my hand. I was called THE MOST SINCERE KID the teachers ever taught. The moment I came from the classroom to my home, all the sincerity disappeared.

You will not need any self help book if you absorb this very dense quote created by me after years of observing my behavioural patterns.

Who Am I

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