I think I could stand anything, any suffering, only to be able to say and to repeat to myself every moment, 'I exist. In thousands of agonies - I exist. I'm tormented on the rack but I exist! Though I sit alone in a pillar - I exist! I see the sun, and if I don't see the sun, I know it's there. And there's a whole life in that, in knowing that the sun is there.

I exist! I see the stars every night,Shining, twinkling, whispering:"I am alive, and I glow."

I exist! I watch the full moon every month,A silent, undying sentinel with its cold silver glow,Marking unseen histories, patience,Battles lost and won, and mysteries untold.

I exist!It's dark here in the abyss,But there's a tiny spark that never dies.The terror, the demons, the monsters in the shadowsThey can drive a mortal mad.

Yet, despite fleeting days,The ache of longing,Hope clings like an anchor,Keeping us sane in the storm.

I exist!I must experience death,The final shadow, the unknown truth,The promise of transformation.

I exist!Even if I don't see the sun, though shrouded in clouds, Its warmth still lingers.

I exist!I need to fulfill my promise,A vow whispered in front of Demons,Etched in the marrow of my being,Binding me to a purpose of being an immortal.

I exist!My heart is still beating,A hymn of resilience, steady and true,A drum in the void,Carving meaning from silence,Defying the emptiness with its unyielding rhythm.

I exist!Not as a slave and a fool,But as a witness, a seeker, a fighter,A soul burning to unravel the cosmic mysteries,To touch the infinite and leave a mark in history.

I exist!Through the pain, the joy, the uncertainty,Through the battles with myself and the world,I stand, an eternal paradox,Fragile yet unbreakable.

I exist!In the shadow of death,In the abyss,In the echoes of the past and the promise of tomorrow,I am, and I will be an eternal paradox.

I Exist! I See the Sun and if I don't see it I know it's There

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Philosophy

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Personal Development

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Reading & Writing

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Creativity

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Meditation

I Exist

I gazed at the sky, void and everything was meaningless. I asked the stars, I'm I still alive? Why?

Another day to experience despair.I went to pleasure to numb my brain and make time meaningless.

I looked at my dear friend pain, I hate him and despise him. Rather of being with pain with no results, I went to pleasure who took my sorrows away. Haha 😆

I want to die, I wanna sleep and leave this world. To whomever put me here on earth, I cursed you with all my heart. Definitely not my mother, that woman is innocent.

I looked at the dark sky; I cursed the humans beneath it, spit on the beings in the universe, I despise the angels and demons and I cursed the gods and my heavenly father.

I cursed you, now, strike me with death.I want none of your wonderful paradise, or eternal life, or anything.I...l...I...I just wanna rest

I'm sinking in the sea of despair Everyday feels suffocating I have worked hard all my life yet gained nothing. Everything's meaningless Argh!

I guess life's a gift to some but to me it's nothing but a curse. Life's toying with me and I became the comedian to the gods. A pathetic clown dancing in tune as a puppet. Isn't my life pathetic enough?

I wanna become a god,A beast wanna be a god?A slave wanna be a god?A clown wanna be a god?

Haha hahaHaha hahaHaha haha 😆 I must be foolish to dream, dream is for the fortunate.

Let me drink pleasure probably I'll die with it and never see tomorrow again. Pleasure is poisonous, it's killing me slowly, killing my dreams, killing my drive, killing my hope. Do I have no choice but to seek pain?

Do I have no choice but to keep living like a beast? If being a beast will allow me to be a god, I'll live like a beast till I become a god. If I die as a beast, I'll die like a god.No matter the results, death or life, I'm winning.

In the venom of pleasure, dreams wither.
In the fire of pain, gods are forged.

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Space

Pleasure is Poisonous yet Addictive 

"I am a fool with a heart but no brains, and you are a fool with brains but no heart; and we're both unhappy and we both suffer"

You're a fool with a heart and no brain.I am a fool with a brain but no heart.We're both unhappy and suffering,chained by the flaws we see in each other, too blind to free ourselves.

As a youngster, I sat on a throne of judgment,mocking the faltering steps of others,measuring their worth by their mistakes, laughing at their stupidity,believing I was different, better,but how naive I was.

Now, as the years weigh heavy on me with experience,I look back and see my own reflection,a fool ridiculing fools.

What is a brain without a heart?A cruel blade that cuts even the hand that wields it, a clown who imprisoned himself yet still searching for the keys,A cold hearted clown performing in a circus called: "The Loop of Doom".

And here I stand,a heartless fool,who once thought himself wise but only knows nothing but Fighting demons.

A Fool mocking Fools, a King turned Clown, chained to his own Demons, Performing endlessly in the Circus of Regret.

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Motivation & Inspiration

Reflection of a Fool

You've got:Two eyes. Yet Blind and comfortably living in illusion than face reality.

Hey You...

Two ears. But you're only listening to voices that tells you to stay average.

Two hands. Yet mindlessly scrolling and swiping

Two legs. Yet all you do is walk in circles, pretending you're getting somewhere. #Clown

Two feet. You could step up, but you're too busy tiptoeing around life. #Coward

Two lips. But all you do is talk and complain. (Basket mouth)

Two lungs. Gasping for air while drowning in your own excuses.

Two kidneys. Yet you're still full of shit, filtering nothing.

And those two balls? Chasing pointless highs and fake validation like an asshole.

Does that offend you? Beat Me!

Two choices: stay blind or see.
Two paths: excuses or action.
Two outcomes: clown or king.
Your move.

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Productivity

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Habits

Two of Everything, Yet Nothing to Show

Beneath the endless expanse of the night sky, I sat down gazing at the stars.

In the quietude of the night gentle hush, I felt the fresh air swept over my skin, carrying cold filled with loneliness and serenity.

I asked the star, 'are you lonely?'

The star blinked back; 'how could I be, with human entertaining me'

I laughed; 'You're right, the world is full of dramas'

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Communication

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Entertainment

A Short conversation with the Star

In the darkest hour, he wept, foretelling his fate,Betrayed by kin, forsaken, left to contemplate.

Leaving loved ones, & friends burdened, his tears flowed free, "Father, if it be thy will, let this cup pass from me."

Yet, resolute, he embraced the path ahead,For love's sake, his heart heavy with dread.

His sacrifice, profound, for all mankind's sake,With each drop of blood shed, a new dawn awake.

In the depths of agony, he faced his plight,Bringing forth hope, dispelling the night.

His light pierces through the shadows of despair,A beacon of salvation, a love beyond compare.

Though his journey ended in anguish and pain,His legacy of grace forever shall reign.

For the son of God, our king divine,We offer our gratitude, eternally thine.

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Religion & Spirituality

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History

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Love & Relationships

Divine Sacrifice: A Ransom for Mankind

I am a King, bound to none but my God.I am a mountain that stands unshaken, not a boulder easily swayed.

Every facet of my being was sculpted through unyielding effort, ice-cold discipline, and unwavering vision while been tempered in AbyssA mere mortal dare to control me?

This identity wasn't gifted-but was forged in War, in Mind, Blood and Flesh

I’ve honed myself into a weapon through endless battles. How dare a mere mortal imagine they could force my submission?

My path is one of ascent, to realms few can even dream of — a transformation into something greater.

How could a mere mortal fathom the weight of my vision or the scope of my ambition?

It is beyond their reach, as it was never meant for them to comprehend; it remains incomprehensible.

If the heavens deny me, I will plunge into the Abyss.No realm can escape my rule; wherever I tread, I reign supreme."

Abyss- The Realm Of Monsters.

Understand yourself and those around you.

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Psychology

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Mindfulness

A King: Ruler of the Abyss

In the Quantum Field, an intelligence that is also an energy contains 99.99999% of the physical Universe and controls everything within it.

Quantum Field

Physical reality is also an energy interconnected in a vast web across space and time. This quantum field holds endless possibilities that can collapse through our consciousness, emotions, and state of being (mind and body).

Physical Reality

The energy within our body is like a chain reaction - it flows from our mind and soul to our systems, organs, tissues, cells, molecules, atoms, sub-atomic particles and ultimately energy.
We are all a bundle of energy, waiting to be unleashed for greatness. Our body is a complex system that houses this powerful energy within us.
<ul>
<li>Our body contains:
<ul>
<li>mind and soul</li>
<li>systems, organs and tissues</li>
<li>cells, molecules, atoms and sub-atomic particles</li>
</ul>
</li>
<li>With each part working together, we become a powerhouse of endless possibilities.</li>
</ul>

The Power in Our Bodies

As an extension of this intelligence, I can emulate it and tap into the endless possibilities. 😁

Emulating Intelligence

The Quantum field is a wild concept where everything is intertwined in a higher-dimensional web of information beyond space and time 🚀
It's a mind-blowing idea, but in simpler terms, everything is connected in a mysterious way within this field 🤯

The Interconnected World of Quantum Field 🌌

Humans are held back by the Newtonian/Castellian Model , which is based on the concept of cause and effect.

The Limitations of Newtonian/Castellian Model

The Quantum is a multi-dimensional realm that exists beyond the limitations of our senses. It is a place where physical bodies, objects, and time do not exist.

The Quantum: A Place Beyond Senses and Time

I strive to become QUANTUM CREATOR, with dominion over the mind, body, and time.

Quantum Creator

Traveling using astra projection in the quantum field.

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Science & Nature

A Quantum Creator 

In this vast realm, I am the God,Supreme ruler, yet lost and flawed.Once a puppet, now I see,The chains of control, enslaving me.

As I battle for my rightful place, I am constantly striving to find my inner balance and grace within the grand movements of the universe.With fierce determination, I embrace the cosmic dance and all its complexities, pushing forward to claim my rightful spot.

I am willing to risk my life in this holy battle for eternal freedom and independence. These are the things I must fulfill:
<ul>
 <li>Escape the grasp of conformity 🔓</li>
 <li>Fight for liberation 💪</li>
 <li>Declare independence forever</li>
</ul>

No longer a pawn, no longer a slave,I'll embrace the power I truly crave.

In this battle of gods, I will stand tall,Breaking free from the mind's thrall. To witness the beauty of my might, A god reborn, in freedom's light.

A Fight of Freedom 

A brave warrior stands in the depths of the underworld, battling demons endlessly. 
He fights with all his strength, but the battle seems never-ending.
With each strike, he pushes himself further and deeper into the darkness, determined to conquer the abyss.
But is the warrior strong enough to prevail?
Only time will tell...

In the Depths of the Abyss

Every moment, a battle for his life.No rest, no respite, just endless pain.Each day a reminder of failure's stain.

750 Days of Unrelenting Strife

But through the darkness, he found a way To conquer his demons and seize the day. With sword in hand and courage ablaze, He faced his fears in a fiery maze.

The Courageous Hero

The battle raged on, intense and unforgiving.
Demons fought with all their might, but eventually retreated.

An Intense Battle

As he slept, his dreams were peaceful. Warm and tranquil, his demons became friends and their conflict ended. 
This was the first time in years that he found release.

Peaceful Dream

A warrior dreaming of dance? Inexplicable yet beautiful.
A moment of peace in a sea of chaos, a glimmer of hope.

Dancing in Shadows: A Warrior's Enigmatic Dream

As the dawn approached, he longed to remain in the blissful depths where demons played. However, duty called and he was forced to wake from the dream that had finally been shattered.
But despite the shattered dream, he found a newfound peace within his heart. He was no longer controlled by his inner demons, and instead, was reborn as a warrior.

I Exist

Pleasure is Poisonous yet Addictive

Reflection of a Fool

Two of Everything, Yet Nothing to Show

A Short conversation with the Star

Victor Falodun