BPD and Getting Older

BPD is a personality disorder characterized by symptoms like impulsivity, substance abuse, self-harm, suicidal ideation, unstable sense of self, etc.

As most mental conditions, it manifests itself in early adulthood and it can negatively impact your life in varying degrees.

BPD is more treatable that it was previously thought, with DBT (Dialectical Behavior Therapy). It is understood that it can be in a state of remission, when you can manage it better and eventually master it.

They were chaotic, absolutely terrible. Like riding in a car that no one was driving and that I was barely driving myself.

I had terrible mood swings, a huge difficulty managing my emotions. Anger issues were awful. Resentment and so many negative emotions flooded me all the time, it was hard to be alone.

A lot of black and white thinking, splitting (changing your mind about people for sometimes seemingly small things) and I was so sensitive to rejection. Obsession was also a pattern that I had.